So over the past weekend I was really busy and there were a lot of birthday events. Unfortunately the birthday didn't start out how I had planned.

My friend had bought us tickets to go to Piere's in Ft. Wayne for a concert Thursday April 10th. Plies (a rapper) was performing and she really wanted to go and we had said since we started working together that we were going to go to a rap concert together. So she bought my ticket as a gift and told me that she was going to get us a hotel room really close to the club so that we could get wasted and celebrate. Weeks went by.. planning, deciding, she still kept saying that we were going to stay in a hotel. I didn't want to because I felt bad not being able to pay, I wasn't prepared for such a big weekend and had little money. I had just a little money to drink with but she kept insisting that she was getting the hotel so I finally stopped putting up a fight and let her win. So the night of the concert we are on our way to Ft. Wayne. She's talking about a guy that she knows from near there and keeps talking about how she just needs to leave him alone (one because she has a boyfriend) but mostly because he's rude and mean and just leads her on. We get to the concert, all is well. Then that same guy shows up with 2 of his friends. He was being really mean to her and half way making her night bad. I was pretty tipsy and was trying to ignore him because I wanted to tell him off but figured it wouldn't be a good idea. He treated her badly most of the night but somewhere I missed the make up because when the concert ended she kept waiting around for him and his friends. Then they walked out to her car with us and I kept asking what was going on because it wasn't looking like we were going to a hotel room alone at that point and I wasn't comfortable with that at all. I didn't know these guys and I have a very awesome boyfriend waiting at home so I asked her what was going on again and finally when they were all surrounding the car with us she said very lightly "ohhh.. uh, well we are gonna go with them to one of their friend's house for a couple hours until I sober up enough to drive home." I got instantly pissed. I didn't know these people. He was rude and mean and had treated her like crap most of the evening. He was driving her car to a place that I had no clue where it was. And she didn't even ask me if I was ok with any of it. I felt betrayed and hurt. Some people might not get upset about something like that but I'm tired of my friend putting mean guys that don't deserve her before her friends that she's supposed to care about. So when we finally got to this "friends" house I refused to get out of the car. I told her to go on in and that I'd be waiting for her when she got back. The boys went in and she sat there and continued trying to get me to go in. She didn't understand why I was so upset and kept being really mean. Then she had the nerve to ask "why I was doing this to her" that was the boiling point. We fought for a half hour then she finally got mad enough to go in the house. Who knows what she did for a half hour 45 minutes but she came back out a little later and got in the drivers seat. I get upset about that too. I asked her what she was doing and if she was ok to drive and she kept tellin me yes she was fine and she couldn't leave me in the car. I found it funny that she was then concerned about me and how I felt. So I slept the whole ride home to her house. Got out of her car, into mine, and drove home. The whole thing made me so mad that I was sober enough to drive home but I believe I was still buzzing. I just couldn't believe that my friend did that to me. It could have all been fine had she just asked me when she made the plans with him at the club but instead she left me in the dark and put me in an awkward situation.

She apologized but then followed that by saying she didn't think she did anything wrong. So that too upset me. I just don't know what to say to her right now. One of our mutual friends is trying to get me to talk to her but I'm just still mad and upset. What would you do? Any advice? What's your opinions?

Even though the Thursday before my birthday was kind of messed up the following weekend days were better. I spent the day with my amazing boyfriend Friday. My family and friends Saturday. Then relaxed a little Sunday and went to our last night of bowling. So overall my birthday was a good one. It just had one little bump in the road.

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Oh yeah. And I was a little let down because I do like rap & hip hop but Plies sang a song that was a tad too racist for me. He said the word cracker more times than I could count. I like some of his songs but that also made me feel a tad awkward.

Well, my friend Shauna asked me when I was gonna come back to xanga and I decided I'd give it a try. I've never really been good at putting things in words but I do like to write. I was doing the myspace thing for a long time but it like everything else... tends to get boring. I'm not giving it up, just decided to try this again. See what kind of new friends I can make and catch up with some old. :)

A lot of things have changed sine I've last blogged. I still work at the same place but I'm now going to work and going to school. I'm taking 4 classes a week. I'm going back to school to learn some graphic design. It interests me and I think it's something that can make me some money and will always keep my attention. I don't think I'll get too bored with it. :)

I'm also with the most amazing boy. It's crazy for me kind of. Ya know when you are younger and in high school there is this one guy that you completely drool over. You always see him. Stare. Think.. man.. if only. The guy you think is just amazing but you would never have a chance with. Well I ended up with that guy. I thought he was so cool and sweet. He was gorgeous. I'm excited that we are together. We've been together for a little over a year now and we are doing really well. He makes me so happy and things are getting pretty serious. I'll put a pic of us nerds below.



 

Did you miss me?

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I don't know what my deal is. I do get online almost everday. I just never get on xanga. I have a lot to say I just never have enough time actually say it. I need to try and fix that huh? I miss all my xanga buddies greatly. I'm so very sorry. Things are just going so great with my life at the moment. I'm trying to enjoy every minute. Things have changed a lot and it's awesome. I don't know. I just enjoy always having something to do. When I get down time I don't know what to do with myself. So here I is. I needed to catch up. Yep yep. So I have a boyfriend and we've been going out since the 2nd. I got my first kiss like 3 weeks ago also. How awesome is that, ha ha. Ima dork I know. I've made tons of new friends that I've been spending all kinds of time with. Everybody at work has told me that they haven't met anyone like me. That's cuz I'm unique don't ya know? Ha ha. It's awesome though. So over all I'm having a great time. I do wish I had more time though. So that I could see all my friends. There are a few that I miss dearly. Our schedules don't work out the best so I never get to see them and that does make me somewhat sad. I'm hoping to see them Saturday though. Yayerz.

I might be getting a new car Saturday though. I have no idea what one. I'm going to Richmond to look and I'm super excited. I really really really want a new car. I need it because my truck is a P.O.S. Seriously. It is breaking every week. Over something or the other. That gets depressing. Since my dude lives in a different town it's just kinda nice to have a vehicle to drive there and what not. He could give me rides but I work in that town too so it's just easier for me to drive to work then stop to visit him then go home. Right? Right. Well I think I've talked enough for one post. For now anyways.

Wait.
I like Panic at the Disco.
They excite me.
And that's weird.

 

Any who.
Did you miss me?

Looooves.